Sunday, was the worst day of my life. Not for any reason in particular, just I ran out of tobacco, have no money or access to emergency funds, therefore craving cigarettes and enduring all the emotional turmoil of a psychological disorder simultaneously with cravings. I'm watching Libra astrological predictions for the following month on Youtube, since they comfort me whilst my own perspective and faith are fragile and nihilistic. It is now Tuesday and I spent the best of yesterday (Monday) in total hibernation (sleeping for nearly a whole 24 hours straight) I feel that this is depression upon the shock of realising what I have lost. I stabbed the concrete wall several times with a large pair of scissors in frustration as I felt like physically harming, although I would never allow myself do this to me or another person.
I was offered a place at a university. I can't go because I've exhausted my financial options, in the meantime. I will do everything in my power to attain justice in my life, from now on.
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